What's Next?
You ask me what comes next for you like I have the answers.
But I do not have the answers.
So, let me ask you…
What is it that you really want to know?
Maybe what you really want to know is that you will be okay. That by this time next year you will be fully taken care of. And that on the other side of this life transition you will be able to take the deepest breath you have ever taken and, on the exhale, feel fully at peace for the first time in a while.
I only know that you might want to know this because it’s what I used to want to know too. I thought knowing what came next in the future would make me feel better.
So, I tried to control every next chapter.
I treated the future like it was something that I needed to chase. Then to capture. Wrestle it to the ground like an alligator and tame it and make my pet.
But who has an alligator for a pet? Because alligators they are meant to be wild.
And maybe I am too.
And maybe so are you.
Because it is only when. I loosened the grips around the alligator’s neck that I realized the only thing I ever wanted in the future…
Was to feel freaking free.
To be all of me.
So, I let go.
And I released that alligator back into the wild. I started living for today. I stopped trying to find the answers to tomorrow.
I began to pour my whole heart into every single present moment the best that I could.
It was only then when the future I was trying to control unraveled itself in divine magical order.
So, you want to make money in the future?
I want you to ask yourself what makes you feel wealthy, right now?
You want to be in love?
Ask yourself what things in life make you feel like an ooey gooey mess inside your heart space, right now?
You want to be healthy this time next year?
What choices can you make today to feel your vitality of healthy blood pumping through your veins delivering radiant energy to every cell of your being, right now?
Because if you don’t let go of the grip around the alligator’s neck you might squeeze too hard for too long and it might just stop breathing.
And you might just miss this mystical, beautiful, mind-blowing, now-moment that knows no space or time.
Because the choices you make in it. Those are the choices that will create the rest of your life.
So, the next time you find yourself holding on too tightly...
I hope you remember that you and the alligator are one in the same -
Both wild at heart and meant to live freaking free.
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